raw:

oh, winter. you have exhausted me. chilled me to the bone. i'm ready for some spring weather. something to lift the spirits just a bit. this weather just makes me feel so... dull.

i've been wanting to write songs lately. but i ask myself a lot what the song my heart is singing right now.

and lately, it's just been cold. 

i am longing for life. for heat. for my icy heart to be made alive. awaken my soul, oh god.

winter always feels like this big deep rut, then right when i feel like i can't take the monotony any longer, spring COMES. praise the Lord, spring comes. and sprouts of life start showing.

signs of life. signs of change. signs of new things.

god, revive my heart tonight. help me to find joy this season of life.

help me look to the future with joy... to tomorrow with joy.

YOU are my joy, and i haven't been seeking you enough, i guess.

because that's something i've been lacking.

thank you, for your promises that are yes every time (1 cor. 1:20).

thank you, for never leaving or forsaking me. for being my refuge and strength. for having an easy yoke and a light burden, for giving me rest. for hearing me. for your right hand over me.

you are my hope.

my hope for the future.

my hope in times of trouble.

my hope when it seems like i won't make it through another day of work.

my hope when i feel like i have to please everyone.

my hope when life struggles seem WAY bigger than they are.

my hope when the money just isn't there.

my hope when a friend is hard to find.

my hope when fruit is unseen.

my hope when a moment alone is hard to come by.

my hope is in you, God.

i'm placing it there. right now. because i know it's true.

i love you, jesus. i'm humbled by your salvation.

help me to see all the good things.

help me to see your face.