Tuesday, November 19, 2013

what we need



"You have a loving father, a rich inheritance. He will never put on you what he will not bear up with you. It is in the sorrow that God does his best work in us. It is in the “dark night of the soul” that the surgery necessary to give us all that we need - at the expense of the things that are  r o b b i n g  us of what we NEED - is most perfectly performed. He is not the author of evil and suffering, but He is the sovereign King of glory that will use the dark night of the soul to tie our souls to Him more and more and more. If you keep your eye on the inheritance, it becomes extremely difficult to shake your fist at the heavens on the difficult days. “
- Matt Chandler
{from the most recent sermon series, “Recovering Redemption”. The Village Church. September 8, 2013.}
This sermon series has been kicking my butt, calling my number, reading my mail. What I mean is: it's been spot on, guys. Exactly what my little heart has needed - in that kind of way where you're wiping your eyes because someone just called you on your crap and tells you there's more for you than what you're living in. That's what God's been doing in my life through this sermon series. 
It's been a constant reminder that I am a weak girl in need of immeasurable grace and mercy from God. 
It's been a constant encouragement that when we can get real with our admissions to God that we do not trust Him, it can really only get better from there. 
It's been a realization that it takes courage to look pain in the face and walk out from under the weight of shame. 
It's been the beginning of healing and freedom in my life. 
Check it out, y'all, I hope God reveals Himself to you through the messages.

Friday, November 15, 2013

live differently



It's about time to draw a line in the sand. What kind of person do I want to be? One that lets my past experiences dictate how I live my life? Or one that chooses to walk in strength and wisdom into the next thing God has for me; using the hurt and pain as lessons to learn from - and inspiration to live life differently than before? It's time to choose.

excerpt from my journal / / 13 october 13

Thursday, November 14, 2013

god holds onto us.


even when we push him out.
even when we are trying desperately to hold onto him.
he is constant in holding onto us.